Album Diaries | Okay
Rachel Adell, an American mother of three, living in London is releasing an album after enduring cancer and other challenges. Rachel's hope is that Saturday Sunrise will wrap its arms around you, and help you get through that next dark night, as it has for her.
This song was inspired from the day I fainted at the hospital, and woke up with an oxygen mask on my face. The nurse was petting my head and saying over and over, “It’s going to be okay.” I hung onto every syllable of every word of that repeated sentence until it brought me back to consciousness. That statement was so grounding, comforting, and hopeful to me. Sometimes we need a reminder that a horrible moment is not going to last forever. Knowing relief is on the way can be exactly what we need to keep holding on. To this day, I use this mantra to ground myself.
Blurry mind
Empty shell
Some days
Turn into hell
Eyes hazy
Someone there
Whispered softly
Through my hair
It’s gonna be okay
It’s gonna be okay
I know it doesn’t seem like it now
But give it time to settle down
It’s gonna be okay
Medicate
and they radiate
Wrote down the words
I wanted to say
Didn’t know if I
Would live or die
Something said
To me inside
You’re gonna be okay
Watch news
Spread fear
Make storms
Every year
But that old machine
It won’t destroy
Cause love is louder
Than the noise
We’re gonna be okay
Written and performed by Rachel Adell
Harmonies by Georgina Sayer, fellow cancer survivor
Produced by Craig Sayer
Album Diaries | You Have It
Rachel Adell, an American mother of three, living in London is releasing an album after enduring cancer and other challenges. Rachel's hope is that Saturday Sunrise will wrap its arms around you, and help you get through that next dark night, as it has for her.
Song: “You Have It”
Album: Saturday Sunrise 2023
Written: Los Angeles 2020
Topic: You have what it takes within
Brave the weather
Far from home
You come untethered
Like a poem
Rise and fall
Pull and sway
Not lost at all
Feel it beat so heavily
Tension and revelry
Holding space
You gotta breathe
I wrote this song initially in Los Angeles while living through the pandemic, but I was thinking back to when we lived in Montreal. I was experiencing serious postpartum depression in the middle of those 7 month Montreal winters-ehhh. I had intruding thoughts of ending it all. So hard to speak up about these things because you don’t want to be too heavy for anyone, but what I have found from my own experience of speaking up or wishing other people felt safe to speak up, is that it’s always always worth it. All people want is to be there for you. They feel honored you chose them to trust your heart with.
Digging low
Crawling slow
Motion spinning
Storms collide
Instincts alive
You have it in you
Alive and waiting
Hurricane swelling in your bones
Hear what you’re saying
While they throw all their diamond stones
Jump and bolt
Somewhere out there, no hat, no coat
Barefoot prints out in the snow
Naked and so vulnerable
Holding to hope
As the universe unfolds
There is a strong hopeful child inside of you who doesn’t want you to give up. There is always a way forward. Nothing lasts forever.
Some days it may seem freaking beyond possible, but hang on, that relief you’re seeking is just around the corner.
Keep breathing. Tell a trusted friend. Take a break just for you. Align your expectations. Allow yourself to let go. Keep breathing. One deep breath at a time. Ask the universe to help you. You are connected. You are capable. You have so much to look forward to. This will not last forever. You’re going to be okay. Another deep breath. You are going to be okay. You are going to be okay. You are going to be okay.
Standing there
In the falling snow
Head spinning
Storms inside
Your soul’s alive
You have it in you
Written by Rachel Adell and Craig Sayer
Produced by Craig Sayer